I did it. Finally! I am finding my own groove. Eight days strong now. I have been only eating 1000 calories or less of super healthy food. I haven't had any alcohol or cigarettes. I signed up with a personal trainer who kicked my a** for two days this week. And the biggie........ Roger went away for two days, and I didn't worry, or get upset, or obsess over being alone. Actually, I had a super great time!
I watched half of the House of Cards series on Netflix. Ran around the apartment in what ever I wanted. Took a long, hot bath. I got a pedicure with Cajun Shrimp polish and my eyebrows were waxed. I saw the movie Pain and Gain, which was very funny. I went to the Auto Zone by myself and smiled big, and the manager was happy to change out a fuse for me for free while it was sprinkling. I did some shopping at the mall, and didn't spend a penny (besides my Subway salad). And, I'm truly happy.
I read last night that if you want someone's attention, stop giving them yours. Well (plug your ears Roger), normally when Roger goes away, I tend to fall on his back burner, and he forgets to communicate with me. Not a wise choice when your wife has anxiety.
Anyway, I tried it. Actually, I had so much fun it was effortless. And, it works. I had more contact with him in the last 24 hours than I did during one week that he was in Peru.
Go me! I'm super, uber proud of myself.
And, if you'll notice, I am writing on my blog. Wheeeeeeee!
Thank you for sticking with me.
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